In case you are wondering , the painting behind the dolls is a self-portrait my mother did when she was in college. It's a great painting. I have a nice collection of family art in my studio, pieces from my great uncle, my grandmother, and my mom. I recommend folks start their own family art collection - its a different but nice way to experience your family. Alas, that's fodder for an entire separate blog post....
So I've begun working on my sample set Matryoshka dolls. Part of being an Art Therapist is familiarity with art making materials and an understanding of feelings and processes inherent in making things. I can't teach a workshop in self exploration if I haven't engaged in such myself, thus the "practice run" of creating Art Full Self Martroyshka dolls.
I was so eager to try out the paints on the wooden surface of the dolls, that I approached the first doll cold without any preliminary sketches. I am ordinarily such a planner, so for me to act spontaneously in this manner was actually, well, therapeutic. I chose the smallest, innermost doll. I felt I should illustrate something elemental as an expression of this inner most part of myself. I thought about outer space, the universe and the millions of stars in the night sky, and how when I stand below them I feel inconsequential but strangely happy, connected and comforted at the same time. Below is an image of my inner most little guy. As I finished him/her, (is our inner most self gendered?), I thought about a line from my favorite spiritual prayer/poem, the Desiderata: "You are a child of the Universe, no less than the trees and stars, you have a right to be here".
A few weeks later I began sketching my ideas for the second doll. For some reason, I have been especially aware of poppies lately. I remember Art Therapist Cathi Malchidoi mentioning in her book, The Soul's Palette, how for a period of time she was surrounded by imagery of crows. She would create crows in her work and see them frequently her in daily life. It is the same with me and the poppies lately, and I am still searching for what they are trying to tell me.
Because of the manner in which I have encountered the poppies, I am beginning to think their message to me is related to "the Self in connection to others". Who are we without our connections? Our family? Our friends? Our professional communities? This inner dialogue is still evolving for me, so I'm not going to comment about it too much today. I am posting the preliminary sketch for the Poppy Field Doll - see below. It will be interesting to see how closely the actual doll replicates the sketches.
I find this whole process tremendously revealing and fun. Solipsistic as it may be,it feels good to discover who you are. I wonder how other people do this... a thing they do that helps them articulate their identity. Therefore I'll close with some questions for my readers, "What makes you, you?" "What are your strengths?" "Do you use your strengths in a therapeutic capacity, if so, how?" Please share in the comments section of this post - and thanks for reading/participating! Till next time ....erin.